Thoughts by Adrian Palacios

Sometimes when you think, it is like your not thinking at all. You sit down to contemplate, but in reality, contemplating nothing. People tend to worry about the things that are really of no importance and the things that will not benefit them. So I ask this question, why put time into something if it is of no significance.
Daily we become overwhelmed with people and the things they say and do. We become stressed, pressured and locked down. We hear the gossip of the people around us trying to tear us down and destroy us, and in return we do the same. If people really sat down and contemplated their own words and actions, they would not feel as condemned as they feel. People become devoted to being on top of everything, trying to be perfect, trying to be the best. Society has laid down an impression that everyone has to be better than the next, and with that, people become enticed by being better than the person next to them. Constantly, we think about what to say and how to say it, to make ourselves seem superior over another. We have jobs and make money in order to have nice things to make people look at us in hope that people will notice us and accept us. We spend ridiculous amounts of money trying to impress others. Then, when we have been accepted, we become even more stressed trying to keep up with the new you, the new you that was accepted. We believe that these people are our “friends” and we are willing to do anything in order to keep them. The new things that we get ourselves into are an even bigger burden on us on top of the other things. After being used and abused, we begin to feel disgusted with ourselves, and that’s when the real contemplation begins.
When we are at the bottom, we begin to think about the things around us, the real things around us. If I had not done this, I would not have done that. If I had not said this, they would not have said that. If we really sat down and contemplated the things that mattered we would not be where a lot of us are today. The thing about people is that they will never change. People will always judge, discriminate, and reject. If we think about the people we called friends two years ago, not many of them are worthy of the title of friend at this point. Not to say that there is no such thing as a real friend, but what I am saying is that they are rare. If you have to try to be someone’s friend, I would not call them a friend at all. If someone wanted to be your friend, you would not have to TRY to be their friend, they would be your friend automatically. Also, be careful when choosing your friends, not all people are who they seem to be. People can be backstabbers, liars, blackmailers, and users of you. If there is anyone who has ever had a friend like that, I feel your pain. But, there are also the good ones. The ones that care about you and take care of you and the ones who are always there for you, but like I said, they are rare to find, but when you do find one, do not let go of them. If people talk about you, do not be like them. Many people have the mentality that because people talk about them that it is acceptable for them to do also.
In the end, it all comes down to who we are as a person. If people really thought about the things that mattered they would be happy. We spend half of our life trying to be someone that we are not. Were the things that we did to fit in really worth it? Did those things really make a difference in the daily lives that we live today? I can honestly say that they did make a difference in my life today, but I am not saying that it’s a good difference. There are many things I wish I could go back and change. In our lives we have to come to the conclusion that everything we do must be thouroghly contemplated. If we come to the conclusion that a certain thing will not benefit us, we should get rid of it. Sometimes that means getting rid of certain friends. Overall, people make decisions based off of emotions and how we feel. The things we do are based on the emotions we allow ourselves to have. I believe the only emotion we should have is joy. Other emotions allow us to do the stupid things that we do. For example, fear holds us back from doing the things we are capable of doing. Sadness allows you to go into depression that will eventually lead to suicide. Hatred towards something or someone will allow you to be hurtful whether it be physically or verbally. In conclusion, do not let your life be run off of emotions instead of your heart. There is nothing worse than doing something based on how you are feeling at that very second and regret it later on. In all you do, contemplate your decisions and choose accordingly to what will benefit you later, not now.